Mommying

Here we were about two years ago. By this coming summer I hope there will be a baby and maybe a toddler in this picture too. What started out as wanting to foster newborns has now broadened to "for sure" we are adopting again. That should scare me, but it actually makes me happy. My husband and the biological kids are all thrilled. G. not so much. She doesn't care one way or the other really. That's to be expected.

I have been thinking it all over, and really being honest with my self. Shouldn't I be excited that my kids are older and I am free to do so many other things now? The thought that in as little as 5 years from now I could pretty much do whatever I want because by then I won't be needed at home as much-Ben would be 16 and able to drive should thrill me. I could work if I wanted to- but I don't. I worked for alot of years and I love being home. I think being a mom is the #1 job there is. The most important. If more moms loved their babies and were supported in all the ways it takes to allow them to remain home, raising their kids full time, I think the world would be a better place. There would definately be alot more cookies in the world.

Moms at home, keeping an eye on the neighborhood during the day. Available to mentor and befriend the new moms in her neighborhood. Yep, the world would be a better place with more moms being moms.

So, while I could do alot of other things with my life in a few years, I think I'm going to keep the mom job. I'll mother other people's children, people who can't or won't, and we'll adopt one of them or maybe more, and I'll just keep mommying until I can Gramma. Because I think being a gramma will be even better than being a mom. Maybe.