Monday, August 2, 2010

Worn Out


I have to admit to being pretty worn out by our little darling. I have been a foster mom for only 10 days, but I am sleep-deprived and weary. This baby is so precious, and just melts our hearts when he smiles at us. We truly love him, which was a surprise. Honestly, I was afraid it would feel like babysitting that went on for too long, you know what I mean! But it doesn't at all. It feels like one of my own children. Here's the big difference though, this sweet baby is drug-affected. He is classic too, and is often inconsolable, irritable, and just plain hard. I am grateful to have so many willing helpers around here. It makes me wonder how a drug addict manages when she gets to keep her baby or gets her baby back? I mean, she's got her own issues, how does she deal with a baby's issues? Especially such a loud, needy, and constant one?

If you think about it, please pray for our baby. Pray for all the others out there like him, and the other foster parents or adoptive parents dealing with the aftermath of drug and alcohol havoc. While you are at it, pray for the women who give birth to these poor souls. They may need it more than all of us.

6 comments:

  1. Amen!!!! What a great reminder that that everyone need's prayer the innocent and guilty.

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  2. Oh Dalyn,

    Only God can put that kind of love in your heart.......

    5 years ago my daughter in-law died in childbirth. At that time God placed into my care my 5 year old grand daughter and her newborn sister. My son's children, (him, with a drug past and not in any condition to raise or care for these precious little girls).
    Me, menopausal, empty nester. totally loven my freedom and lack of responsibility, I was completley wrapped up in my horses.
    But God had other plans for me and was about to completeley strip me of a self-centered life and over the next few years I was totally broken. I was so desperate for change, desperate for God.
    I began to persue Him, on purpose, with a passion I had never experienced before.
    It has been an incredible journey, at times all I could do was cry out to God, "God, I can't change my circumstances, change my heart."

    As you know, our God IS faithful!
    He has totally changed me, my heart and my focus. I totally love my life and can't even imagine my life any different. I know I did not just get used to it. God took the shattered pieces of this clay pot and put them back together in a way that does not look like the other pot. I am forever changed by the refiners fire.

    All this to say, I know how hard it is to be sleep deprived and exhausted. All the while not really sure if this is a permanent arrangement. It is not easy to take on the love and care for the motherless, fatherless, poor, sick, homeless or hungry, (even when they are you own blood) but it is what pleases the Father's heart and I know that for those of us who have been willing to be used to touch the lives of such as these, our rewards will be great. Even though that is not why we do it.


    Today, now 5 years later I'm the only mother the youngest one has ever known.

    This year I have begun homeschooling Paris my 5 year old and will be starting Portia, now 10 in just a few weeks.

    I have chosen Sonlight for our curriculum, it takes a lot of the planning and guess work out of it for me and I think it will be a good fit for us all.

    Wow, this is good stuff! LOL
    Im going to post this on my own blog.

    Blessing, peace and sleep girl.
    A horsey fix helps now and then too.
    Susan

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  3. Oh Dalyn, Only God can put a love like that in your heart.......

    5 years ago my daughter in-law died in childbirth. At that time God placed into my care my 5 year old grand daughter and her newborn sister. My son's children, (him, with a drug past and not in any condition to raise or care for these precious little girls).
    Me, menopausal, empty nester. totally loven my freedom and lack of responsibility, I was completley wrapped up in my horses.
    But God had other plans for me and was about to completely strip me of a self-centered life and over the next few years I was totally broken. I was so desperate for change, desperate for God.
    I began to persue Him, on purpose, with a passion I had never experienced before.
    It has been an incredible journey, at times all I could do was cry out to God, "God, I can't change my circumstances, change my heart."

    As you know, our God IS faithful!
    He has totally changed me, my heart and my focus. I totally love my life and can't even imagine my life any different. I know I did not just get used to it. God took the shattered pieces of this clay pot and put them back together in a way that does not look like the other pot. I am forever changed by the refiners fire.

    All this to say, I know how hard it is to be sleep deprived and exausted. All the while not really sure if this is a permanent arrangement. It is not easy to take on the love and care for the motherless, fatherless, poor, sick, homeless or hungry, (even when they are you own blood) but it is what pleases the Father's heart and I know that for those of us who have been willing to be used to touch the lives of such as these, our rewards will be great. Even though that is not why we do it.


    Today, now 5 years later I'm the only mother the youngest one has ever known.

    This year I have begun homeschooling Paris my 5 year old and will be starting Portia, now 10 in just a few weeks.

    I have chosen Sonlight for our curriculum, it takes a lot of the planning and guess work out of it for me and I think it will be a good fit for us all.

    Wow, this is good stuff! LOL
    Im going to post this on my own blog.

    Blessing, peace and sleep girl.
    A horsey fix helps now and then too.
    Susan

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  4. you have no idea how I would so love to have a like minded, Christ loving, coffee drinking, horse lover for a neighbor. All my neighbors are Mormons who don't even drink coffee. Besides that fact most of them don't even have a horse! LOL

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  5. It is definately exhausting but SO worth it. We just found out some crazy info. on our 14 mo. old. Can you believe they will give visitation to any guy that comes forward saying he is the dad? They don't even require a dna test. Right now there are two guys saying they are the father!

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